jelousy!

bile org kurus semua org suka

macam saya agak2 ade yg suke x?

i feel sad,pathetic,loser,lame,stupid,useless and the list go on

im thinking im in the wrong side of the world now.

my sister always said to me awhh~ adikku fatcat lawa like 100X

but she's the only person had tell me that more than 10X

idk if she tells that to cheer me up or what

but the fact is that my sis look more arab than me..

and ppl adore her  more

that is coz we have arab blood..

hell yeahh i look more like my father side which is JAWA

so i dont look preety like my sis and of coz my MUM which is purely arabs!

whenever the three of us hangout together of coz ppl have more intention to sis and mama
it makes me feel FUGLY okayhh!

its like im not attractive AT ALL!

this is making me depressed deep inside!

damn it!i hate it!this make me eat more!

coz when im depressed i eat MORE!

than the chances of losing weight is lesser..

GOD PLZ GIVE ME A CLUE!

ppl dont care for me anymore...

even my bestfren dont call me anymore..

i texted her but she didnt reply..

i think im useless too..

in my course i kept thinking im not good enuf for it.

i kept thinking hve make a wrong decisions by choosing culinary arts!

but somehow i think there is reason why god lead me to this course..

hope there's a bright and succesfull future waiting for me ahead!

JYEAHH!

~with lots of love yaww~